I
Don't Care
So I'm sitting in the back
row at the opera with my friend Ray and...
Hold on, wait just a
minute. Before we go any further I just wanted to say how much fun
it was to type those first few words! I don't suppose the context of
what we were saying could be any more interesting than the fact of
where we were, but let's head onward and find out, shall we?
As I was saying, I was
sitting at the opera with my friend Ray...
OK, let's stop again. For
your edification it was a LIGHT opera, as if that hardly makes any
difference. They have those sort of things, you know. It wasn't at
all the 250-pound Brunhilde warbling in German about her Viking lover
being dragged away in chains to some erstwhile Valhalla. Or whatever
GRAND opera is all about. This particular variant on this particular
day in my hometown was a George and Ira Gershwin production from the
mid '20's with lots of jazz and a silly play in between the musical
numbers. It was light-hearted and quite toe-tappingly entertaining.
Not at all “Der Ring des Nibelungen” or anything of that ilk.
You know, ponderous and momentous.
But the light opera, as
glorious as it was, wasn't what I wanted to talk about right
now.
So we're sitting there,
waiting for the entertainment to commence, and Ray starts recounting
to me his take on one of the big stories in the news at the time.
You may know the one I'm talking about. A security guard (or armed
hooligan) of some sort has an altercation with a young man (or
vicious criminal) and, after some sort of scuffle (or perhaps some
sort of not-scuffle), a shot was fired and the young man was killed
(or murdered). This discussion at the opera took place soon after
the trial was over and the shooter had been found not guilty. Ray
was under the impression that justice had not been served and
someone had “gotten away” with murder and he continued along this
path for some time.
I like Ray a lot. He's a
very nice man and was smart enough to have married one of my favorite
people from college, so I nodded at the appropriate places in his
dialog and agreed that he had a point.
Maybe.
But I was also sure to
tell him that I didn't necessarily agree or disagree with his
opinion. I think he was a little disappointed that I didn't jump on
the bandwagon with him and echo his suspicions that the “wrong”
verdict had been reached vis-a-vis the security guard.
Truth be told I may have
even been leaning in the opposite direction.
To be honest, I hadn't
been following the story very closely. I'd seen it reported on the
news quite a lot, of course. You couldn't turn on the television
during the trial without seeing the story. But I hadn't paid too
much attention to it.
Some people might gasp in
shock that I would not pay attention to that particular story.
Wasn't I concerned about the situation? Couldn't I immediately see
that things had happened because the security guard was a bigot and
had essentially laid in wait for the young man? How could I be so
blind not to see this truth? Was I myself not some kind of bigot for
not seeing the situation for what it was?
The answers to the above
are no, no, I don't think I'm blind and no I don't think I'm a bigot.
To be brutally honest, I
didn't care very much either way.
Do I hear a gasp from my
faithful readers? Are you all mortified that I didn't ache for the
slain young man? Are you angry with me for not vilifying the shooter
and thirsting for his comeuppance? His blood?
Think about this: On the
day of the incident, how many other people were shot and killed –
justifiably and not, how many other people died in car wrecks,
household accidents, cooking accidents, bathing accidents, lawn
mowing accidents and other various ways that people seem to have
discovered on how to shuffle off this mortal coil? How many people
were maimed and dismembered? How many people got divorced and how
many spouses died? Not to mention how many lives were lost in the
myriad of wars around the world every single damn day of the year?
Do I mourn those lost
lives? Do I thirst for the blood of the people who may or may not
have taken them?
I don't know about you,
but over my six-and-a-half decades of life I've become somewhat of a
master at filtering out things, of ignoring things that do not affect
me or do not interest me. It is a process that we humans all acquire
or else we join the inhabitants of mental institutions. Your brain
cannot assimilate all the mayhem that surrounds us. You have
to pick and choose.
And I'll be damned if I'll
let some television editor or some media programming director decide
which particular tragedy I should be concerned with. I'm not
going to rise to their bait like a befuddled trout chasing a
tasty-looking mayfly with a buried hook inside.
I will choose which sad
thing I will pay attention to. Or happy thing for that matter.
Again to be brutally
honest, the death of my friend's dog a few weeks ago saddened and
concerned me much more than the present brouhaha playing
itself out on the airwaves. As to whether I feel much like
demonstrating or marching for a cause, I've never really considered
myself much of a Don Quixote and jousting at windmills isn't now and
never will be an occupation I'm much interested in.
As I see it, an incident
occurred. An investigation was performed. A person was indicted. A
trial was held. A legal verdict was arrived at using the laws of
that particular state. A person was found not guilty. Story
over.
Story over!
Did a bad guy get away
with it or did an aggrieved person gain exoneration? Was justice
served or cruelly thwarted? Who am I to say. The jurors saw the
whole thing presented to them, from both sides, in excruciating
detail, and they said let him go. Why should my
judgment, gathered from many minutes of television watching
take precedence over theirs?
How foolish would that be?
I may not be happy with it
or I may be. I may think the right decision was reached or I might
not.
In the final analysis,
what I think or what I feel are just opinions and should be taken
with a grain of salt.
Because, God help me, I
just didn't care very much.
As an aside, my son is a
security guard. Did that color my view?
You betcha!